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It has definitely been a long time since I have even LOOKED at Deviant art....
I kind of faded into the background, so I'll be uploading a lot of stuff...sorry if you guys get annoyed )-':
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Update
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I cannot say how long it has been since i have even come here to check on things, but I need to update.
Three days ago my mother went in for a routine CT scan, and the results came in only a few hours ago.
She was pronounced NED (No Evidence of Disease) this morning, and we cannot express how happy we are! Less than a year ago she was actually pronounced terminal my her doctor, the cancer having metastasized to her lungs and further--but now that is all gone, as if some miracle had happened! She gives this message to all her supporters, family and friends:
"Thank you God. You have always been by my side throughout the years. Times when I cried, you whispered in my ear "I'm here for you, this too will pass". Times when I have been weak, you have given me strength. I know I haven't always given you the time you deserved but nonetheless you've shown me love, conpassion and you've blessed me. you've opened my eyes to all the beauty that surrounds me. You have blessed me with loving family and friends who have stuck by my side through thick and thin.....this is the greatest gift in the world. You are my heavenly father and I love you with all my heart. You've heard all of our prayers and I can't thank you enough."
So, thank you to all who have supported me, because God knows this year has been the roughest year of my life in all aspects of it. Now it is just a matter of waiting to see if her last three chemo dosages will prove well, and if she manages to stay NED for five years, her chance of getting it back will be reduced to only ten percent!
Regarding the book itself, it is still a work in progress, but definitely not forgotten! I work with it whenever I can despite school and family taking up 100 percent of my time! Summer i coming up soon, so the time will prove wonderful for a perfect gift for her new NED status!
Just thank you all again so, so, so much for your support and compassion!
Three days ago my mother went in for a routine CT scan, and the results came in only a few hours ago.
She was pronounced NED (No Evidence of Disease) this morning, and we cannot express how happy we are! Less than a year ago she was actually pronounced terminal my her doctor, the cancer having metastasized to her lungs and further--but now that is all gone, as if some miracle had happened! She gives this message to all her supporters, family and friends:
"Thank you God. You have always been by my side throughout the years. Times when I cried, you whispered in my ear "I'm here for you, this too will pass". Times when I have been weak, you have given me strength. I know I haven't always given you the time you deserved but nonetheless you've shown me love, conpassion and you've blessed me. you've opened my eyes to all the beauty that surrounds me. You have blessed me with loving family and friends who have stuck by my side through thick and thin.....this is the greatest gift in the world. You are my heavenly father and I love you with all my heart. You've heard all of our prayers and I can't thank you enough."
So, thank you to all who have supported me, because God knows this year has been the roughest year of my life in all aspects of it. Now it is just a matter of waiting to see if her last three chemo dosages will prove well, and if she manages to stay NED for five years, her chance of getting it back will be reduced to only ten percent!
Regarding the book itself, it is still a work in progress, but definitely not forgotten! I work with it whenever I can despite school and family taking up 100 percent of my time! Summer i coming up soon, so the time will prove wonderful for a perfect gift for her new NED status!
Just thank you all again so, so, so much for your support and compassion!
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Mom update,
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Hey guys, I haven't made an update in so long, I've been busy with life, and school.
I hope you all are doing well, to those who actually pay attention to my updates, and I wanted to share the new revelation that had emerged within the past three days.
I'm not too sure how I can really write this, so I will copy and paste from my mom's Whatnext.com post.
For anyone wanting to read more, you can go to Whatnext.com and search "Lirasgirl33"
"Oh No (Cancer has spread/Metastasized): 9/12/12- Results of my scans came in. The cancer has spread to my lungs and lymph nodes in my chest. The doctor said he wants me to start chemo as soon as possible. I'm scheduled to start Cisplatin and Taxol next week on Tuesday. He said he will also schedule me for a lymph node biopsy of lymph nodes on my neck. The doc wants me to go in for another scan but this time of my brain. They want to make sure cancer hasn't travelled to my brain. The doc said I am now stage 4. He said he can't cure me but the chemo will help prolong my life by slowing down cancer advancement.
I am numb....from the bad news. It feels like the day I was first diagnosed. At least the emotional side of it. I am being strong but I'm still an emotional wreck sometimes. I have to continue to be strong for those I love. I realized I'm not scared about going through chemotherapy again. I know what to expect for the most part. Whatever I need to do, I will do it, if it means I will get to spend more time here on earth with the people I've been blessed to have in my life. I have come to accept and am at peace with my mortality. However this does not by any means mean that I will not fight this disease. I will fight with all my might. I know God has a purpose for me, he always has, he's never left my side. I see him in the rays of the sun, in my garden, in the smiling faces of my kids. He's everywhere. I know I'm not on this journey alone.....not a single second. Let's do this!! Cancer, you better be shaking in your boots, cause I'm not going down without a fight!! Heck no!!"
This brings tears to my eyes, and I cam immensely gifted to be apart of her family, and to be loved by such a strong woman.
I am praying, and so is my whole family that it will not spread to her brain,
that's the last thing I want, I don't want her to go down and forget me, and the ones she hold closest to her heart...
I've been going through a bit of a rough patch, as i imagine many other people do, especially in these situations...
I've realized that we all need to stay strong, we need to make these moments, however long they last all matter. I thank all of you so, so much for your support, and it warms my heart to know that even a stranger can care about another stranger.
Although i'm only fifteen, I feel I've had more than my fair share of problems, and at this point, I don't know if I can handle it any longer... Always scared that might go to her, and she won't remember my birthday... or my age, or even my name and what I meant to her
i don't want to lose the one thing I've always wanted; a mother.
Again, thank you all, so so much, and I love each and every one of my watchers for even taking the time of day to read this. I probably will not be on in a while, but thank you all from the bottom of my heart.
xoxo, Manda
I hope you all are doing well, to those who actually pay attention to my updates, and I wanted to share the new revelation that had emerged within the past three days.
I'm not too sure how I can really write this, so I will copy and paste from my mom's Whatnext.com post.
For anyone wanting to read more, you can go to Whatnext.com and search "Lirasgirl33"
"Oh No (Cancer has spread/Metastasized): 9/12/12- Results of my scans came in. The cancer has spread to my lungs and lymph nodes in my chest. The doctor said he wants me to start chemo as soon as possible. I'm scheduled to start Cisplatin and Taxol next week on Tuesday. He said he will also schedule me for a lymph node biopsy of lymph nodes on my neck. The doc wants me to go in for another scan but this time of my brain. They want to make sure cancer hasn't travelled to my brain. The doc said I am now stage 4. He said he can't cure me but the chemo will help prolong my life by slowing down cancer advancement.
I am numb....from the bad news. It feels like the day I was first diagnosed. At least the emotional side of it. I am being strong but I'm still an emotional wreck sometimes. I have to continue to be strong for those I love. I realized I'm not scared about going through chemotherapy again. I know what to expect for the most part. Whatever I need to do, I will do it, if it means I will get to spend more time here on earth with the people I've been blessed to have in my life. I have come to accept and am at peace with my mortality. However this does not by any means mean that I will not fight this disease. I will fight with all my might. I know God has a purpose for me, he always has, he's never left my side. I see him in the rays of the sun, in my garden, in the smiling faces of my kids. He's everywhere. I know I'm not on this journey alone.....not a single second. Let's do this!! Cancer, you better be shaking in your boots, cause I'm not going down without a fight!! Heck no!!"
This brings tears to my eyes, and I cam immensely gifted to be apart of her family, and to be loved by such a strong woman.
I am praying, and so is my whole family that it will not spread to her brain,
that's the last thing I want, I don't want her to go down and forget me, and the ones she hold closest to her heart...
I've been going through a bit of a rough patch, as i imagine many other people do, especially in these situations...
I've realized that we all need to stay strong, we need to make these moments, however long they last all matter. I thank all of you so, so much for your support, and it warms my heart to know that even a stranger can care about another stranger.
Although i'm only fifteen, I feel I've had more than my fair share of problems, and at this point, I don't know if I can handle it any longer... Always scared that might go to her, and she won't remember my birthday... or my age, or even my name and what I meant to her
i don't want to lose the one thing I've always wanted; a mother.
Again, thank you all, so so much, and I love each and every one of my watchers for even taking the time of day to read this. I probably will not be on in a while, but thank you all from the bottom of my heart.
xoxo, Manda
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SCREAM
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IDEK IF THIS IS ACTUALLY TRUE BUT if it is i want to be safe lol
*copied from another user*
Kinda just covering my own ass and everyone else on my friends list in case anyone is having an issue hacker wise.
PLEASE READ, THIS IS IMPORTANT!
Rumor has it there's a hacker on dA, hacking people and blocking our friends to make them block us! You'll then be banned from dA.
Write the same warning in your journal to protect not only yourself but everyone! Here's another warning: If I'm being a jerk, saying stuff like "Shut up," "Get lost", or "I don't want to see you on my page anymore", that's not really me. That's the hacker.
Write all of this down in your journal too!!
Please do this, it's for the safety of everyone!
*copied from another user*
Kinda just covering my own ass and everyone else on my friends list in case anyone is having an issue hacker wise.
PLEASE READ, THIS IS IMPORTANT!
Rumor has it there's a hacker on dA, hacking people and blocking our friends to make them block us! You'll then be banned from dA.
Write the same warning in your journal to protect not only yourself but everyone! Here's another warning: If I'm being a jerk, saying stuff like "Shut up," "Get lost", or "I don't want to see you on my page anymore", that's not really me. That's the hacker.
Write all of this down in your journal too!!
Please do this, it's for the safety of everyone!
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NEED HELP!!
1 min read
Hey guys, I was wondering a good place where i can print ONE copy of a hardcover art book that I'm doing for my mother. It's not been easy searching and I desperately need advice and details, preferably a website where I can print it ASAP. My mom's birthday was yesterday, which I wanted to start printing by then, but the whole thing with the printing issues & deadline mixups has made it 10x harder. So pleaseeeeee If anybody has anything to help, please, please comment on this journal!! This is very important to me, and to be honest, it's stressing me out since I'm practically arranging this all by myself.
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